will it change my mind?

I've to be quick in making decision. Mahallah promised to give priority for students having their posts in particular organisations. But I definitely will easily get bored and face a lot of problems in gathering information if i do prefer to stay in mahallah without my classmates. 1 more thing, i can have such an opportunity to make a group discussion without thinking to strive riding motorcycle once we're not separated apart.

Staying outside mahallah might bring me to a world where i have to diminish selfnesses that would continuously grow if stay in mahallah. Perhaps it will absolutely generate togetherness and give us chance to survive in the way that we will have it in the future, who knows. So, after having discussion with my future housemates and asking about it with my respected parents, i risk to be one of them to stay in rented house. No 'pak guard' and no 'cleaner' for sure. The picture at above is 'gambar hiasan' only. Eventhough, we've to operate 'cleansing' and 'slight renovation' first as the condition of the house is not as we expected before this. So, new house or room with a new determination (a few days to go towards 2010), who knows?

BIG SATURDAY

my big brother with white "shiny" maritime uniform

taking picture with my beloved mother

my beloved father and sister shared the great moment too

my "cemara" group during mentor-mentee session

"blue vs red" committee in pantai balok

From Kuantan with Love

Pharmily Day 09 in Kuantan, Pahang vs Perbarisan Tamat Latihan Tentera Darat Diraja Malaysia dan Maritim in Tanjung Pengeling, Johor. I couldn't choose both as it runs on the same date - 19th December 09 (Saturday). My family is in en route from KL (my sister's house) to Johor for sure, when this blog is updated. After about 5 months being recruited or trained to become a Maritim officer in the near future, my big brother is gonna finish his 'cruel moments' by tomorrow as the training session will be officially closed. While I'm in Kuantan to attend a special event organised by IIUM pharmacy students tomorrow, I can just wish all the best to my respected brother and welcome to your new journey as u really wish to be before.

I'm also welcoming him to Kuantan as he'll be placed temporarily for several months in Pusat Penguatkuasaan Maritim Kuantan branch. For me, he's such an inspiration for me to stand on my own feet. All the best to him again and at the same time I hope the pharmily day will be exciting and running succesfully tomorrow. Can't wait to come and join tree planting!

Di mana ketenangan itu

Roda itu akan terus berputar selagi mana kehidupan itu diteruskan. Yang berada di atas tidak akan selamanya mengecapi nikmat tersebut andainya terpunah kesedaran di jiwa. Pengakhiran yang baik adalah sesuatu yang sentiasa diharapkan. Meskipun ianya masih jauh atau mungkin sudah dekat, ranjau masih menjadi seroda yang membuatkan kita menjadi lebih bersedia dan matang. Hanya ilmu membuatkan kita bangun kiranya rebah, celik kiranya pandangan menjadi kabur, ikhlas kiranya hati dilanda hasad dan suci kiranya hati sudah ternoda. Permainan dunia sering membatasi kita kepada taqarrub kepada Allah S.W.T. Moga hati ini tabah menghadapi segalanya.

Sejarah hidup menjadi panduan kepada penambahbaikan diri di masa mendatang. Ilmu yang bermanfaat itu menjadikan kita insan berguna dan bukannya leka dengan nikmat yang sementara semata-mata. Empat perkara yang perlu diambil berat dan dihindar seadanya: ilmu yang tidak bermanfaat, nafsu yang tidak kenyang, hati yang tidak khusyu' dan doa yang tidak didengari. Perkara-perkara ini mungkin menjadi penyebab utama diri dengan mudah tersadai dek badai dunia.

Kemanisan dunia hanya datang dan pergi. Kebahagian di akhirat sahaja yang akan kekal selamanya. Adat hanya sesuatu yang dicipta manusia sedangkan syariat itu ditetapkan oleh Allah pencipta alam, tuhan yang selayaknya disembah. Manusia akan terus merancang tetapi Dia sahaja yang menentukan. Moga kekuatan pada diri untuk bangkit dari lena dan memperjuangkan Islam akan terus bersemi dan menjadi sebahagian dari kehidupan kita. Iman yang terpasak di jiwa menjadi penyelamat dalam menghadapi kancah dunia. Dan moga ketenangan hadir menyinari hidup ini..

no more playing around

After going through hecticness, nervousness, pleasure, worries, excitement, misery, gloom and so on for about 5 months, here comes the time to make a post-mortem on the 1^st semester of Year 1 in Kulliyyah of Pharmacy IIUM for 09/10 session. With 13 weeks of lectures, 4 ½ weeks of exams, I think I did have enough time to adapt and explore the actual life of a pharmacy student in this IIUM. Now, I do realize that pharmacy students’ lives in this Kulliyyah are exciting despite of having hard time to show commitments and fulfill many tasks given. You cannot just open your books every time to score the highest marks but you have to be active, committed and a little bit extrovert to gain general knowledge and additional information regarding subjects in this course.

Due to that, I hereby highlight some points that need improvement and to be focused more once I begin this coming semester:

1. Utilization of text and reference books is not remarkably at the highest point. I still didn’t distinctly refer that kind of books whenever I was gonna do revisions. I always believed that handouts and notes from lectures are more than enough.
2. Concentration in class was not really satisfactory as I could have easily forgotten some main points emphasized by lecturers or course coordinators that might have possibilities to come out in final exams.
3. Reluctance to grab opportunities in gaining important information really destroyed myself. Either it is from lecturers or friends, I did eventually keep myself in regretful circumstances whenever I was gonna sit for exams. Building a good rapport with our lecturers will undoubtedly benefit us.
4. I didn’t give full cooperation towards attending classes or activities organized that benefits me based on academic point of view. Seminars on drugs in pharmacy practice, UNGS classes, presentations and certain activities organized by previous IPhA office bearers are amongst that I take for granted. Even if I attended some of them, I didn’t really focus on whatever delivered during the activities and classes. But I believe I was not the only one doing it, this condition also happened on some of my colleagues.
5. My time management is quite bad as I noticed. It is because I spent some of my time on something which is not educational and unbeneficial to me. Perhaps having most of the time with books and notes will lead us to possess bad social lifestyle, but I think it is unfair to judge someone blatantly just like that. Consideration on the core business is important at all.

McLEAD 2009

It’s really amazing for me to get the chance participating special program conducted by S-Dev IIUM Gombak recently. This program called Management Course for Student Leaders (McLEAD 2009) was held in Sanctuary Resort, Cherating from 20-22 Nov 2009 by which the participants are all the representatives from each society in IIUM Gombak and Kuantan. Alhamdulillah, everything was going well. To be surprised, I found that I am the youngest among IIUM Kuantan participants who are mostly presidents and vise presidents from their respective societies. This program is really good to enhance our skills in organizing programs and provide us knowledge to manage our societies in a good way.

Group from IIUM Kuantan

As this program was carried out during monsoon season, we didn’t get the chance to have outdoor activities and recreations. There is always raining quite non-stop either heavily or lightly. Oceans were waving very hard and it is impermissible and dangerous to experience the beach unluckily. But the aims of this program are to well-equip us with information and knowledge regarding the right and legal way to organize a particular program and it is achieved successfully although without any physical activities.

I was attracted by a slot presented by Mr. Rizal Hassan, a consultant that taught us how to know people characteristics by looking their eyes. It’s very2 interesting to know the power of influence and the skills to ‘psycho’ people in a good way. We’re very looking forward to possess the technique to manage our committees and have a good rapport. The best thing is, we’re not easily getting bored with his slot.

On the last day, we’re very lucky to have Dr. Mohd Arip bin Kasmo from UKM to present a slot regarding to the investigation between science and Al-Quran. I’m totally amazed by the presentation that was showed to us and came up with the proof of science on human being and creation of universe. Besides, I had had an opportunity to buy his book published to tell people of all these things. He also showed us some people in western countries who converted to Islam after receiving hidayah from Allah by exploring and investigating the content of Al-Quran. Alhamdulillah..

I wish

It's time to get ready for a challenging life.. Life doesn't bring us to get alone all over the time. We sometimes need to share our time to be spent on others. Study is undoubtedly the core business for students but they have to unleash and enhance their soft skills too. For a leader, he'll be asked on the Day of Judgement on how what he has led. So, if there comes the time people elect you for some posts in particular organizations then that's no way to get off and say "I refuse" without showing ur ability first.

Due to that, I sometimes keep pondering and wondering why students in this kulliyyah chose me for that 'great' post in IPhA (IIUM Pharmacy Students Association) for 09/10 session particularly for 1st year students. Perhaps they've their own reason. Who knows, rite? But the day (8th October 09) would have become unforgettable day for me as I've had astonished condition to know people wouldn't mind to elect me for the post though i've no experience for conducting secretarial works for such great association.

But it doesn't mean i refuse to conduct most of the tasks and works given to me in the future. I don't wanna make a promise for this thing but i will ever try to do my best for this post. I really hope this will not entirely disturb my academic performance. I pray to Allah that i could've the strength to do and fulfil the tasks given. "impossible is just a word created by man.."

Commitment towards Excellence

Emceeing is really exciting actually. I gotta have a chance to project my true voice through that job. Though it was freakin' nervous but it started to be enjoyable after a few moments. Pronunciation must be perfect so that the event seems to be nice. Thanks to kak Nali and br. Azwadi, u guyz really taught me to become a good emcee. The day - closing ceremony of 1st National Pharmacy Quiz 2009 (4th October 09) made me wake up n realize how hard it is actually to become a good emcee. But the important thing is - don't forget to put pantun in ur malay emcee script version. huhu.

Next task on this week, Community Out-Reach Program (CORP) waits for us for sure. I really hope my group can do it well. To be frank, i hate to see people n take their time as i hate to spend my time for unknown person. But i have to admit that this job is important for my study. Bukit Goh, Kuantan will be my destination this coming saturday to see people in that rural area to survey regarding pharmaceutical health care.

H1N1 is everywhere

I was quite astonished by some words produced by fakarudin in his facebook before this. He totally expressed why it should be frantic for Malaysian today with the order to close many education centers just because of the spread of pandemic Influenza A. Yes, we know that the spread of the virus is very rampant in Australia particularly in Melbourne but it's all about ministry's issue. The minister just don't want the very terrible condition becomes worse.

I've been mentioned before that there are a few ipt's around Malaysia including kuantan has closed their institution temporarily just because of that. I don't think it's just a waste of time. People need to be conscious on their health condition nowadays because cost of treatments are not so very little for most disease. So don't just take it for granted. Just remember "prevention is better than cure".

Like in IIUM kuantan right now, some kulliyyahs like medic, dentistry and nursing has given the formal study leave quarantine for their students just to prevent rapid spread. We already knew that IIUM is a very international uni in this country. So, there is no wonder to get shocked for this new news. The quarantine reduces much gatherings between the healthy individuals and the suffering ones. Love the community and don't let people around you to suffer.

Hari-hari sebagai seorang pelajar

Sudah beberapa minggu tak update blog. Kali ni terpanggil untuk tulis dalam bahasa melayu. Penulisan blog dalam bahasa inggeris sebelum2 ni bukan kerana tak ingin memartabatkan bahasa melayu, tapi untuk meningkatkan penguasaan bahasa inggeris. Saya menyokong penuh dasar MBMMBI (Memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu Memantapkan Bahasa Inggeris). 3 minggu pertama di kulliyyah farmasi uia ni agak padat walaupun baru semester pertama. Ingatkan jadual begitu relaks seperti rakan2 lain yang belajar degree, tapi terlupa pula yang farmasi bukan jurusan yang hanya boleh goyang kaki.


Lecture pertama saja dah bersama dengan dekan kulliyyah farmasi. Walaupun kulliyyah ni masih baru lagi – ditubuhkan pada tahun 2002 dan kami merupakan batch ke-8, perasaan kagum tetap ada terhadap kulliyyah ini. Bukan sahaja kerana bangunan baru yang terlalu besar sehingga ke tingkat 6, tapi kerana organisasi kulliyyah ini begitu tersusun sehingga berjaya menempatkan nama setaraf fakulti2 farmasi di ipta yang lain yang sudah begitu lama ditubuhkan. Course subject pun agak mencabar. Anatomy & histo sgt menguji tahap menghafal. Cuma yang geramnye kenapalah tak ada subject math. Tapi tak apa, pharm practice pengubat kekecewaan.

Banyak perkara berlaku sepanjang beberapa minggu ni:

1. Mengikuti Pharmacy Career Talk pada 18 julai yang lepas adalah sesuatu yang bermanfaat. Program yang diatur oleh IPha dari pagi sampai petang itu memberi pemahaman tentang kepelbagaian sektor pekerjaan yang boleh diceburi pelajar farmasi.

2. Futsal tournament bersama senior kulliyyah farmasi. Begitu memenatkan. Dah berapa bulan tak main. Esoknya satu badan sakit-sakit. Gelanggang di Kg. Tiram tu pula terlalu besar.

3. 29 julai 2009, pagi. Kita dikejutkan dengan pemergian salah seorang pelajar tahun 2 kulliyyah sains, Allahyarhamah Normaslina kerahmatullah akibat kemalangan ngeri berhampiran plaza teruntum. Pastinya itu memberi kesan kepada segenap pelajar uia. Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat. Al-Fatihah.

4. Perjumpaan dengan pegawai JPA program dalam negara. Urusan mengedarkan surat tawaran dan borang perjanjian penajaan JPA kepada semua student medic, dentistry dan farmasi. Nama student direct intake tak ada sebab kami di bawah program penyerapan. Pegawai program luar negaralah yang masih bertanggungjawab dalam proses penajaan kami termasuklah Pn. Rosmaini. Tak tau la bila boleh dapat borang perjanjian tu. Tak sampai2 lagi.

3 Consecutive Ta’aruf Week Days

It’s been just about 3 days of Ta’aruf Week for July 09/10 Intake Students in this IIUM. But, we’re – the Direct Intake Students in this university have been about 2 weeks staying here in this Gombak Main Campus. Because some of the others and I are Kuantan’s Campus Students, we can’t even wait to move there. The reason is we definitely won’t have Kulliyyah here and we really need to adapt as quick as possible with the new study environment in Kuantan. By tomorrow we’re gonna leave this campus and go to Kuantan by provided IIUM bus at 9am sharp.

Let’s put that things aside and talk a little bit about our 3 days of Ta’aruf Week. It’s so lucky for not having such a compact program tentative this year due to the spread of Influenza A (H1N1) rampantly nowadays. Much more gathering are too risky for the students to easily transfer the virus as there are many international students enroll this university every year.






During this Taaruf Week, I also got the chance to meet my x-schoolmates. They are Hafiz Jamaluddin (well-known as p-jem) – Engineering, Sharul Nizam (well-known as Yeop) – Laws and Anas Khairul Azhar – Laws. Not becoming over excited but feeling too pleased to see them enrolling in the same period with me.

I’m also really happy to get good results in several tests that I sit since the day I enrolled. Getting exempted in English Placement Test (EPT) is not something fascinating because we’ve been through with IELTS before. But honestly, I was quite shock to pass the Arabic Placement Test (APT) as it’s been about 2 ½ years I left the subject behind. Besides, I gotta be placed in TQB 2000 in Tilawah Test – meaning that I’ll be in Level 2 for Tilawah class soon and have passed the Fundamental Knowledge Test (FKT) recently. Too many tests sometimes are good to brush up your skills but it was bit tiring, I admit.

To be surprised, Fawwaz and I suddenly found Amiruddin’s ‘twin’. His name is Arif. He's our Bai'ah leader in Bai’ah Ceremony (pledging oath). Maybe it sounds funny, but it’s true. It’s not only the similar physical appearance and attitude – hair style, spectacle, goatee and back and side views, but also the way he walks. Sorry Amir, I have to be honest. Sorry for the quite blurred picture to show below as Fawwaz and I didn’t try to get his permission to take his picture during the formal occasion. He's the one in the centre of the picture.

Memori Tercipta

Bayu berpuput di Pulau Rawa,
Deras menderu dahanan meranti;
Kenangan 5 Sains Tulen '06 menggamit jiwa,
Tetap utuh bersemi di hati.

Menyingkap semula memori di SIS membuatkan diri teringat rakan-rakan sekelas Tingkatan 5 pada ketika itu. Perasaan itu membuatkan hadirnya semangat untuk mendapatkan maklumat rakan-rakan sekelas ketika itu mengenai apa yang dilakukan kini dan di mana. Ini mungkin merupakan sebahagiannya sahaja dan masih lagi menanti maklumat dari rakan-rakan yang lain..

MOHD SYAFIQ BIN SHAMSUDDIN
- Ijazah Sarjana Muda Perguruan Pengajian Islam dan Al-Quran/English/Bahasa Arab
Institut Perguruan Guru Malaysia (IPGM) Sultan Abdul Halim, Sg. Petani, Kedah.

MUHAMMAD HAFIZUDDEEN BIN HAZNAN
- Bachelor of Medicine, Bachelor of Surgery (MBBS)
Universiti Al-Azhar, Cairo, Mesir.

SAIFUL AQMAL BIN SAIFUL AZHAR
- Bachelor of Medicine and Surgery (MBBCh)
Universiti Mansourah, Mansourah, Mesir.

KAMARUL HAZIQ BIN BAHARUDDIN
- Bachelor of Medicine and Surgery (MBBCh)
Universiti Alexandria, Al Iskandariah, Mesir.

MUHAMMAD NAQUIB BIN MOHAMAD TARMIZI
- Bachelor of Science with Islamic Studies
University of Malaya, Kuala Lumpur.

MUHAMMAD HAZWAN BIN ABDUL BASIR
- Bachelor of Mechanical Engineering
Universiti Sains Malaysia, Pulau Pinang.

MUHAMMAD ASYRAF BIN OTHMAN
- Bachelor of Biomedical Engineering
Universiti Malaysia Perlis.

MOHAMED IZZUDIN HILMI BIN RIDZWAN
- Diploma in Medical Laboratory Technology
Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia.

REDZUAN BIN HUSSIN
- Bachelor of Biotechnology
Universiti Putra Malaysia.

ALFAHMI BIN ABD. FATAH
- Bachelor of Marine Technology Engineering
Universiti Teknologi Malaysia.

LIFE'S GOING ON

It's been about 6 month since I finished my AUSMAT program in INTEC last year and I absolutely don't wanna wait to start my class back. Yuhuu.. Welcome back to school!! Sometimes I couldn't believe that I'm 20 right now and going to study bachelor's degree. By being offered to study in IIUM (or well-known as UIA) starting this July, I think I'm really pleased to hold the pen back, writing some notes and get to know new friends from nationwide. Like Malay proverb 'Bagai sirih pulang ke gagang', it doesn't matter for me to study in UIA as an Islamic-oriented university in Malaysia though I always have a dream to study in USM or UKM in science course. It's interesting for me to learn or sit for Arabic test back. When talking about my destiny for not having the chance to study degree in Australia anymore, just let it go. Let bygone be bygone. I've to gain my spirit and to be strong and well-motivated to go on with my own life.

I miss the circumstances built in Izzuddin. And I really hope to get it back once I step up into the University. 28th June 09 might become one of memorable days in my life. I pray to Allah that everything's going well. No flight for sure, my family and I decide to have a night before the day we'll be leaving to Gombak by car. Goodbye University of Sydney, Monash University, University of South Australia and Curtin University, perhaps the road I've taken doesn't bring me to there. UIA, I'll be there!!

International Islamic University Malaysia

Sekolah Izzuddin Shah, Ipoh

Sekolah Kebangsaan Taiping

PSAS Convocation Day not bad

On Monday, 27th April 2008, I didn't miss to experience coming to see my older brother to be graduated for Diploma of Civil Engineering in Politeknik Sultan Azlan Shah (PSAS), Behrang after having worked hard for about 3 years to get it. Except my younger sister, my family and I left home just couples of minutes before 6 o'clock in the morning. Honestly, this is my second time to attend a convocation day (not including my INTEC certificate-giving ceremony – just because it's not as great as a convocation day held by universities) after being fascinated to experience my older sister's convocation day in UiTM Shah Alam 4 years ago. The difference in this convocation day is, muslim boys wearing songkok instead of graduation cap while muslim girls wearing uniformed white tudung also without the graduation cap.

On the day, thing that I really wanna know is about the ‘Pingat Ketua Jabatan’ or PKJ, just after noticing a few students wearing it on their graduation cloak. It really makes me wonder on how do they get and what's the specialty that they might have to achieve that. Just after having talked to my brother then I realized that PSAS students must achieve pointer 3.5 and above in final semester in order to ensure being awarded PKJ on graduation day. While some local universities might have what we call as ‘Anugerah Dekan’ or whatsoever, PSAS also has their own way to celebrate their excellent students.

Though it's the first time for PSAS to hold such event in its renovated multi-purpose hall, I think it's not really bad. Although I know before that they're so lucky to hold it in Putrajaya, but having said that I really felt such a convocation environment as other higher institutions might have every single year. With many booths set up by students and invited particular companies especially florists to join together, it's so nice. But, for sure there are some parts that need improvements in terms of efficiency. The high committee members of the event should make sure that there is such a huge canopy for the other family members to watch the ceremony live in big television provided outside the hall. It's also for their convenience too. All in all, it's great!

IIUM Special Interview

Recently, I went for undergoing a special interview on 6th April 2009, conducted by Admissions and Records Division (A&R), IIUM (formerly known as UIAM) in the way to apply for Bachelor of Pharmacy in IIUM for June 2009 intake. The interview is conducted in Meeting Room, A&R Division in IIUM Gombak campus starting from 9 a.m. until 12.p.m. The assessors are the Deans of Health Science Faculties, IIUM though there is no the Dean of Pharmacy Faculty on the day unfortunately. To be surprised, I’ve met my friends in INTEC from AUSMAT program who are Fawwaz, Ain Balqis, Nadiah and Fidah there. They also struggled to get the chance to study in IIUM for the coming intake as I am. There are about 30 students, mostly from A Level Medicine in Kolej Teknologi Timur, Sepang, who have also undergone the special interview. Particularly, the interview is conducted to interview students who have studied international preparation program such as A Level and AUSMAT program for Medicine, Dentistry or Pharmacy, who unfortunately couldn’t fly and hope to continue their first degree locally in their preferred course.

Uniquely IIUM Gombak Campus Buildings create calm circumstances

Main Complex in IIUM Main Campus Gombak

IIUM: Garden of Knowledge and Virtue

ANTARA TAKDIR DAN HARAPAN

Hidup ini ibarat roda..
Hidup di tengah kota..
Penuh cabaran dan dugaan..
Hadapi ia dengan tabah..

Masih terngiang-ngiang lagi lirik lagu nasyid yang pernah dipersembahkan oleh kumpulan nasyid tingkatan 4 tahun 2005 yang mana aku sedikit sebanyak menyumbangkan bakat saya melalui percussion untuk kumpulan yang diketuai oleh Farizal Omar itu. Memang benar hidup ini ada naik dan jatuhnya. Tak selamanya kita berada di atas dan tak selamanya kita berada di bawah. Pengalaman yang lepas terkandung banyak perkara yang sukar dilupakan. Lebih-lebih lagi pengalaman yang pahit. Tetapi pengalaman yang perit itulah yang mendewasakan kita.

Bukan tidak dapat menerima hakikat yang sudah ditetapkan oleh Ilahi, tetapi ujian yang diberikan kadangkala di luar jangkauan kita. Namun begitu, saya berserah kepada takdir dan sentiasa berdoa agar saya berjaya menjadi pegawai farmasi yang dapat berkhidmat pada masyarakat pada suatu masa nanti. Saya tahu adalah begitu sukar menerima kenyataan bahawa aku tidak lagi dapat melanjutkan pelajaran untuk Bachelor of Pharmacy di Curtin University of technology, Perth bagi kemasukan februari 2009 ini. Tetapi saya sentiasa bersyukur akan segala kejayaan yang ditempa sejak di bangku sekolah lagi. Saya yakin bahawa Allah itu Maha Adil akan segala sesuatu. Mungkin ada banyak hikmah yang tersembunyi.

Saya kini sedang berusaha memohon untuk menyambung pelajaran di IPT tempatan dalam bidang yang sama. Cuma untuk menyambung pelajaran di IPTA tempatan dalam bidang yang sama bukanlah mudah untuk diri saya yang hanya mempunyai sijil South Australian Certificate of Education (SACE). IPTA tempatan mempunyai kuota tersendiri bagi pelajar-pelajar yang ingin memohon melanjutkan pelajaran. Sebagai contoh, UKM sendiri tidak menerima permohonan daripada pelajar-pelajar persediaan untuk ke luar negara dalam bidang perubatan, pergigian dan farmasi sebaliknya membuka peluang itu hanya kepada pelajar-pelajar lepasan Matrikulasi dan STPM. Hanya yang boleh dimohon untuk Ijazah Sarjana Muda Farmasi kini hanyalah IIUM dan UiTM bagi pelajar program persediaan di INTEC. Saya juga berpeluang membuat permohonan untuk Ijazah Sarjana Muda Sains Bioperubatan di UKM dengan menghantar surat permohonan ke bahagian Jabatan Pendaftar.

Jangan difikir derita akan berpanjangan...
Kelak akan membawa putus asa pada tuhan...
Kerana biasanya kabus tak berpanjangan...
Setelah kabus berlalu pasti cerah kembali...

Menghayati rangkap ini daripada lirik lagu ‘Kehidupan’ yang dinasyidkan oleh kumpulan In-Team bersama Nazrey dari kumpulan Raihan memberi satu nafas baru kepada saya untuk meneruskan hidup. Sebenarnya adalah begitu sukar untuk mempunyai keyakinan yang tinggi di saat-saat begini ketika ramai yang tidak memberi sokongan yang padu. Tetapi itulah sebenarnya manusia. Ada yang baik hati dan ada juga yang tidak. Ada yang sentiasa mencari kelemahan kita dan ada yang tidak. Tetapi diri kita perlulah sentiasa berbuat baik kepada semua orang walaupun orang itu tidak berkelakuan baik terhadap kita. Kadangkala, dengan mengambil iktibar daripada apa yang disampaikan oleh Dr. HM Tuah Iskandar Al-Haj dalam buku-bukunya seperti ‘Biar Betul-betul’, ‘Sendiri Mau Ingat’ dan ‘Membina Imaginasi Cemerlang’, saya seperti mendapat motivasi kembali bahawasanya individu cemerlang akan sentiasa bangkit dari kegagalan. Beliau pernah menyebut bahawa mengapa perlu pelajar-pelajar universiti berputus asa untuk meneruskan hidup hanya kerana masalah cinta ataupun kerana tidak berjaya mendapatkan pekerjaan tetap sedangkan mereka adalah individu cerdik pandai yang berharga pada negara.

THE REAL LIFE BEGINS 2

Visa medical examination has also triggered other problematic circumstances to me as my visa was not approved yet. I underwent my visa medical examination in Klinik Khong, Ipoh, one of Australian panel clinics in Malaysia. Yeah, I dare to say that it’s due to my chest x-ray films showing the opacity suggestive of having granuloma, some sorts of signs for people to get PTB. But I have no power to prevent my chest x-ray from that kind of problem. I just prayed that everything is gonna be okay then. Dr. Esther Kong, 69, who’s responsible on my medical check up dated on 23rd January 2008, informed me that the result would be ready after a week via online. For this medical check up, I’d to be charged for about RM115 including chest x-ray.

But man can only purpose, God is the only one who dispose. Until the flight date, my visa was not approved yet. Then I found that I’m the only one who cannot fly off to Perth on 7th February 2009 from 14 students going to study in Curtin University of Technology in pharmacy. Gloomy, sorrow, disappointment and etc have always enveloped me since that time. But I tried so hard for not losing hope to study abroad. I always kept checking my visa application status although it seems that no good news could I get whenever I went online. I also made a call to too many person organizations including JPA, IDP Subang, Australian Embassy and Australian High Commission in KL and even Health Officer Centre (HOC) in Sydney after being advised. I did converse with them so long and finally I checked back with my panel doctor. Yup, as expected early, there is a shadow oval opacity at mid zone on my right lung. Oh no, I was in trouble!

Before that, I saw Dr. Rosalind for the second time on 2nd February 2009 to get the report regarding my sputum culture commenced about 1 month before. Just after having brief consultation with her, then I really felt so pleased to get no problems regarding my JPA medical check up. But how’re about the visa things? Oh God! It’s really terrific. Then I realized that life is not as easy as we always think. It’s really challenging and getting harder. But I couldn’t just wait and see. I had to do something. After considering my situation at that time, I called back my panel doctor to report to her my problem.

On Friday 13th February 2009, I decided to see Dr. Khong again on that day to help me to settle my problem. And everything’s still not going well. I’ve to see the doctor for the next day and on 16th, 17th and 18th February 2009 continuously. And it’s really exhausting and cost consumption for sure. Ipoh from Sg. Siput (U) takes about 45 min to reach. Either I like it or not, I’ve to do so.

I’ve to say that I was quite shocked on Monday when I got a call from IDP Subang informing me that there was a message from Australian Immigration directing me to undergo another chest x-ray for further investigation. Oh my goodness, I was so tired to do the sixth and seventh x-ray films since I did my JPA medical check up after that. Seriously, I was afraid if I might get side effects due to having a lot of chest x-ray films but alhamdulillah, the radiologist’s assistance said I’m not. Particularly, on Tuesday 17th February 2009, I had to see Dr. Tan Eng Kheong, a chest physician in his private clinic in Ipoh Garden. But I was afraid to be highly charged. After being advised by Dr. Khong, I better go to get everything settled. My mom also supported me although we couldn’t afford. By bringing together a lot of hopes and prays, I started my way to the clinic on the early morning. After I’d been checked up by the physician, as I expected before then I had to pay RM180 at counter. On the next day, I saw the Dr. Khong again to check all my documents back required by the doctor before it’ll be posted out by express courier service to KL. For the next step, I’ve to wait and wait by keeping checking online times by times to know either my visa is approved or not… But it’s really tough for me to accept the truth that I couldn't fly. Personally, I know that Allah is the most Merciful though what has happened to me is really hard. I have to be courage on the days after so that I could be able to achieve my vision to make my life more meaningful.

THE REAL LIFE BEGINS І

Undergoing medical examination is not so burdening for some people. But it’s not as simple as for others who are not going well with it. Problem might be faced out of our control. I sincerely has suffered from it as I’m gonna be screwed up by undergoing medical check up required by my sponsor, JPA and for visa approval indeed.

I really found that I was gonna step up to a very hard and terrible moment once I went to Hospital Pantai Putri, Ipoh, located on Jalan Tambun and saw Dr. Lee Ling Ling in Health and Wellness Centre there for medical check up. On Saturday 27th December 2008, I tried my best to finish up all the tests required in one day as I have to hand in to JPA as soon as possible, no matter how expensive it was to undergo it in private hospital. Lastly, yeah I had been charged for about RM252 for all the tests. Because there is a Mantoux test to be tested on me for JPA medical check up, then I had to see the doctor again after 3 days, means I had to go there on Tuesday 30th December 2008 to find out either I was positive or negative for Mantoux test.

It was sad to say that I suffered itching and redness on the point that I’d been injected for the test before I came to see the doctor. Then I realized that I was in a big trouble as the doctor confirmed that I had been suspected to get Pulmonary Tuberculosis (PTB) due to positive Mantoux test and an abnormality traced out at the mid zone of my right lung. I definitely wondered why I could be suspected for that kind of disease as I didn’t get any bad fever and even severe cough. Besides, I also didn’t get any appetite and weight loss. I felt like to lose hope but I determined that there will be a way where there is a will. I had been advised by the doctor to see chest physician in Hospital Ipoh, a government hospital who’s going to make further investigation on me.

I came to see Dr. Rosalind Toh Beng Hong, a chest physician and consultant to ask for her help to make me out of this gloom. Because of that, I’d to be charged RM30 for the consultation. But the procedure is not as simple as we always think. She told me that I have to submit my sputum AFB samples as they are going to culture it under incubation in Kuala Lumpur. It’s vital for them to grow mycobacteria tuberculosis for about at least 1 month. I became anxious then as I needed to submit the JPA medical report on the 15th January 2009 during the pre-departure briefing in Putrajaya for lateness in case. After that I struggled to explain to Pn. Fauzana bt Abd. Muhi, the JPA officer for Australia and New Zealand bound students at that time so that I could hand in the medical check up form filled quite late after I’m done with everything.

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Tak Lapuk Dek Hujan, Tak Lekang Dek Panas

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Saya juga masih ingat salah satu pantun yang dijual oleh Saudari Nur Dalila mewakili Sekolah Raja Perempuan Taayah ketika bertanding di peringkat akhir Pesta Pantun peringkat negeri Perak tahun 2003 yang mempunyai susunan dan ritma yang begitu baik dan indah sekali,

Berserak putik bersilang di desa,
Subur cempaka di baruh meranti,
Semarak patriotik menjulang bangsa,
Dilentur apa dek keruh hati?
 
Satu perkara lagi yang menjadikan pesta pantun lebih mencabar adalah berkenaan tema khusus yang disediakan pada setiap pusingan yang begitu pelbagai. Sebagai contoh, saya pernah menempuh tema-tema yang memerlukan kerja keras dan pengetahuan yang mendalam seperti ‘Integrasi Nasional’, ‘Semangat Kejiranan’, ‘Ilmu Pelita Hidup’ dan ‘Nilai Masa’ selain daripada tema-tema seperti ‘Semarak Patriotik’ dan ‘Meritokrasi Penjana Kegemilangan’ yang pernah saya dengar sebelum ini. Hal ini kerana, untuk mendapat skor tertinggi dalam pantun jual yang dicipta, pantun tersebut perlu mempunyai untaian kata yang indah yang tersembunyi makna yang mendalam di sebaliknya. Kebiasaannya, kemahiran ini lebih menumpu kepada usaha menggarap peribahasa dalam pantun yang dicipta. Sebagai contoh, saya pernah menggunakan peribahasa seperti ‘berkerat rotan berpatah arang’ dan 'sedang rebung elok dipatah, jadi buluh melepuh jari'. Selain itu, saya juga tertarik dengan penyampaian pemantun Sekolah Raja Perempuan Taayah yang banyak mempraktikkan penggunaan peribahasa dalam pantun mereka. Sebagai contoh, mereka pernah menggunakan peribahasa ‘seperti lidi terbetas di tali’ dan ‘seperti memanjat terkena seroda’ yang sememangnya begitu jarang kita dengar. Saudari Nur Jannah dari sekolah tersebut mempraktikkannya pada tahun 2003 dalam pantun yang berikut;

Serindit putih di dahan manggis,
Ke mana pergi si burung kenari;
Sakit merintih panahan Portugis,
Mengapa lidi terbetas di tali?
 
Bagaimanapun, yang menjadi persoalan kini adalah sejauh manakah kita menghargai seni pantun Melayu yang menjadi warisan berharga bagi rakyat di negara ini. Jika kita menghayati juga irama-irama lagu Melayu turut menyelitkan banyak pantun-pantun yang membawa mesej-mesej tertentu. Sebagai contoh, lagu ‘Joget Berhibur’ dendangan Datuk Siti Nurhaliza banyak diselitkan dengan pantun-pantun Melayu seperti,

Sorok di peti bunga kasturi,

Kainlah songket habis berbau,

Pujuklah hati bawa menari,

Menari joget lagu Melayu.

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SENI WARISAN PANTUN MELAYU

Sirih berlipat sirih pinang,
Sirih dari Pulau Mutiara;
Pemanis kata selamat datang,
Awal bismilah pembuka kata.

Diilhamkan dari rencana ‘Ghairah dalam Empat Baris: Pantun Sebagai Bentuk Bersama’ karangan Muhammad Hj. Salleh, USM, saya mendahulukan tinta permata ini dengan salam sejahtera dan muhibbah untuk sama-sama berkongsi keindahan seni pantun Melayu yang tiada tandingan. Rangkap-rangkap pantun Melayu asli terkenal dan kaya dengan keindahannya dalam menyimpan banyak maksud tersirat yang tidak dapat ditafsirkan secara literal. Namun begitu, adat berpantun masih mampu dikekalkan sehingga ke hari ini. Sekiranya kita mengikuti pelbagai majlis-majlis termasuklah upacara merisik, upacara akad nikah, resepsi, majlis makan malam, majlis perpisahan dan sebagainya, kita akan mendapati bahawa pantun-pantun Melayu seringkali kedengaran.

Tingkap papan kayu bersegi,
Sampan sakat di Pulau Angsa;
Indah tampan kerana budi,
Tinggi bangsa kerana bahasa.

Pengalaman yang lepas akan saya jadikan landasan untuk mengajak anda menghayati dan meneliti keindahan seni warisan ini. Alangkah indahnya andai dapat dipersembahkan pantun pada masa-masa yang begitu bermakna. Sebagai bekas pemantun yang mewakili Sekolah Izzuddin Shah pada tahun 2005 dan 2006, saya sendiri teruja mencipta dan mempersembahkan pantun-pantun yang begitu mendalam maksudnya. Konsep pertandingan yang diadakan adalah lebih menjurus kepada pengekalan unsur-unsur keaslian seni berpantun yang begitu puitis didengari.

Mengarang pantun sememangnya bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah kerana saya sendiri memerlukan pengetahuan yang mendalam mengenai maksud untai kata dan perkataan yang membawa kepada sesuatu maksud apatah lagi perlu menyusunnya mengikut ritma yang berpadanan. Cabaran ketika pertandingan juga ditambah dengan bakat mencipta pantun kurang dari 60 saat. Namun begitu, berbekalkan semangat dan usaha dan tinggi, cabaran yang digalas dapat dilaksanakan dengan baik sekali. Pesta Pantun peringkat daerah Kinta 2 tahun 2005 dan 2006 serta peringkat negeri Perak tahun 2006 sememangnya menyimpan banyak kenangan manis yang tidak dapat dilupakan. Saya bersama-sama tiga rakan seperjuangan, Abdul Annas bin Shriff, Mohd Asyraf bin Othman dan Saiful Aqmal bin Saiful Azhar telah menggembleng tenaga memastikan perjuangan kami lebih bermakna. Akhirnya, usaha kami terbalas dengan menggondol gelaran naib johan pesta pantun peringkat zon PKG Seri Ampang dan daerah Kinta serta mara ke peringkat suku akhir peringkat negeri Perak bertempat di daerah Kerian. Kekalahan kami di peringkat negeri dikira bermaruah kerana tumpas di tangan peserta separuh akhir Pesta Pantun Piala Sirih Pulang ke Gagang peringkat kebangsaan pada tahun yang sama. Perjuangan ini lebih bermakna kepada saya sendiri apabila berjaya merangkul gelaran Pemantun Terbaik peringkat daerah Kinta tahun 2006.

Sampan kolek di hujung tanjung,
Disusun muatan diatur bersilang;
Adat dikelek budi dijunjung,
Mampukah watan terus menjulang?

Rangkap pantun ini merupakan salah satu rangkap-rangkap pantun yang pernah saya karang dan jual kepada pihak lawan ketika bertanding. Di sinilah ruang di mana kita dapat menunjukkan bakat kita mengarang untai kata yang indah demi memartabatkan bangsa. Teknik penyusunan perkatan juga perlu dipelajari sebaik mungkin agar rangkap-rangkap pantun yang terhasil lebih indah dan terpancar kekayaan bahasa yang begitu berharga. Sebagai contoh, pantun yang baik mempunyai ritma hujung ‘abab’ dan bukannya ‘aaaa’. ‘aaaa’ hanya sesuai dalam mencipta syair yang puitis. Namun begitu tidak menjadi kesalahan untuk mencipta pantun beritma hujung ‘aaaa’. Manakala, di bahagian pangkal dan tengah pula, adalah lebih indah jika dapat disusun ‘abab’ atau ‘aaaa’. Sebagai contoh,

Buah langsat kuning mencelah,

Senduduk tidak berbunga lagi;

Sudah dapat gading bertuah,

Tanduk tidak berguna lagi.

Dari mana punai melayang,

Dari paya turun ke padi;

Dari mana datangnya sayang,

Dari mata turun ke hati.

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